I can relate somewhat to your story in that I walked away and years later came back to question if I should get involved again with another, possibly better company.
One thing that helped me was to research MLMs in general and how they work (or don’t rather). There’s an article in this group’s files (along with many others) that helps to spell it out a bit better than I can;
As Mike said, MLMs all basically work in a similar manner. 98% of those that get involved in MLM do not make any money. MLMs require that failure to work BUT they need a percentage of that 98% to be loyal to the company and place those qualifying orders each month. This to me is the ultimate factor that decided my mind. I couldn’t continue pretending to people that they had a good chance of bringing in some cash when the numbers say different. People lie, numbers don’t.